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Pop beauty Nicole Scherzinger tells of her personal struggle with stardom and how she likes to let her music do the talking
Nov 09 2014

DESPITE success as a solo artist, X Factor judge and front-woman of the Pussycat Dolls, Nicole Scherzinger admits that she struggled to cope with the pitfalls of stardom.

ON the face of it, she was the perfect pop princess with supermodel looks, a soaring international career and a world-beating Formula 1 driver boyfriend.

But Nicole Scherzinger has admitted she struggled to cope with stardom, battling eating disorders , a lack of confidence and dealing with an on-off relationship with
Lewis Hamilton .

She’s now in a much better place, with an MTV EMA nomination, a plum new role in Cats and a more settled love life with Lewis.

Which is why the star – who is tipped to pick up the Best World Stage award at the MTV EMA bash in Glasgow tonight – jumped at the chance to help other young singers by mentoring them on The X Factor .

She said: “When you let go of the lies, let go of the past, let go of whatever’s holding you back then you’re more free. You’re more liberated and able to focus on the positives, on your purpose, and on other people.

“That was the joy of working on The X Factor at that time, because I could focus my energy on other people and help them.

“I learned so much. I got such joy out of mentoring. I encouraged my acts to be authentic, which made me re-evaluate myself as an artist and the music that I was doing.

“I wanted to make sure I was being my most authentic as well.”

The stunning singer addresses the issues in her life on her new album Big Fat Lie, a departure from the throwaway pop tunes of the past as she pours out her feelings.

And for the first time, according to Nicole, it’s an album that could only have come from her – because it’s from the heart.

She said: “It’s just where I am. People know me a lot from pop music, they know me from The Pussycat Dolls. Now I’m finally confident enough and in a good enough place as a woman that I’m able to talk about stuff I normally wouldn’t talk about. I’m able to do it through music.

“I feel it’s important as an artist to be honest through your music and that’s what really is going to connect with people – the honesty.

“Or else, as a pop artist, what is going to separate me from all the rest? Sometimes you hear songs and you think ‘Well, anybody could have sung that song’.

“It’s hard to differentiate and I’m really proud of this album because the sound is unique to me. The-Dream and Tricky helped me to find my own sound.

“I have my own voice and the records are very personal, as opposed to just music that’s been shopped around by everybody and made in that kind of way.

“It’s the first time that I’ve ever made an album like this.”

The title refers to her battles with herself and her problems, notably with food issues and body confidence.

While her fame was exploding as the girl at the centre of the Pussycat Dolls’ success who won male hearts all over the world, Nicole felt far from beautiful and happy – just the opposite, in fact.

“Yeah. Extremely. Quite the opposite. Things aren’t always what they appear.

“So much of the emphasis at the beginning was put on the concept behind it, the Burlesque concept, the cabaret concept. So much of it had to do with image.

“I struggled with a lot of my own insecurities. So it just kind of escalated from there.

“The lies that I’m talking about – the biggest lies – are the ones we tell ourselves. We all battle with our own issues.

“So for me it was to touch on a part of it, I was addressing some eating disorder issues that I’ve struggled with most of my life but the lies are the insecurities, the voices in our head, the fear that holds us back.”

Happily, those issues are now firmly behind her, which is why she feels able to talk about them so openly.

“I’ve moved past that and I’m still standing. But I think that we all still struggle, we’re all a work in progress.

“What I’ve realised is that through revealing the lies, through exposing, that’s where healing comes from and that’s when you’re able to move on and move closer to the truth.

“ So, as you mature, as you reveal the lies and it gets better. It’s awareness and it brings more peace, more balance, and more acceptance.

“Things aren’t always perfect, as we all know. We all go through tough times.

“It was a few years of getting help and talking about it and working through it with the right people.

“I think just becoming aware of my own issues, recognising that we all have our demons that we battle with.

“So working towards that took a few years of maturing, and getting past all of that and overcoming it.”

She has also faced up to the trauma of her on-off relationship with Hamilton, notably in the song On The Rocks.

Having said in the past that her career was more important to her than a love life, she’s pretty happy now that she’s got both – although work still comes first.

“We can always ask for more! I definitely stand by that and I think any relationship that is meant to be will lift your career and not take away from it.

“For me, On the Rocks is about being in a relationship. Although obviously all songs are open to different interpretations.

“I wanted the video to be in an old dilapidated house that was kind of falling apart, so it was kind of about shedding old skin and coming into new.

“It’s being strong enough to say goodbye to a relationship that doesn’t serve you and that you’re not growing in.

“And yeah, it’s an empowered song and at the end of the video I’m running – so there’s freedom there.”

Running seems to be bit of a theme – the next single from the album is called Run and will take her back to The X Factor for a special performance in front of her replacement Cheryl Fernandez-Versini .

“Run is the only song on the album that The-Dream and Tricky didn’t collaborate with me on . Another team worked on it.

“It’s quite revealing and vulnerable, it’s just a very exposed song.

“I focus on the word ‘run’ so it’s more about running from your fears, whatever is holding you back, making you not feel that you’re worthy of that job, relationship or whatever is keeping you feeling small.

“Running from the lies that are feeding the big fat lie – that’s how I see this song.”

We reckon she’ll be running all the way to the SSE Hydro tonight , although Nicole is staying tight-lipped about her chances of winning the Best World Stage award.

Tonight’s MTV EMAs star hostess Nicki Minaj , Ariana Grande, Ed Sheeran and Calvin Harris , while rock legend Ozzy Osbourne will collect the Global Icon award.

And maybe a certain former Pussycat Doll and X Factor judge will be in the audience, onstage, or collecting an award – although Nicole is maintaining the mystery, other than hinting she’ll be in the city.

She told MTV: “I love Glasgow. Oh my gosh, those accents. It’s a riot”.

She will definitely be on stage when she takes on the lead role of Grizabella in Cats in London’s West End at the start of December – and she’s pretty much moved to the UK while she has been rehearsing and performing.

“I’m very happy right now, I’m really excited about Cats.

“My actual house is in Los Angeles, California, but I never get to see it because I’m usually in London.

“The Londoners have definitely adopted me.

“I’m just honoured that Andrew Lloyd Webber asked me to revive Cats and I’m excited to dive into it . We’ll create magic in it.

“It’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. It’s the part I was born to do.

“Andrew and I have worked together a number of times. He has faith in me.”

But the beauty confesses she has a deep, dark secret… she can’t stand those cute little balls of feline fur.

“I’m definitely a dog person. I’m allergic to cats”, said Nicole.
The MTV EMA 2014 is on MTV tonight from 8pm, and on Five from 9pm


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